Feb 2020, what a month!  January ended on a high note, but I spent most of February in the most deflated state.  I felt so overwhelmed and inadequate!  I don’t remember ever getting to that point where I didn’t want to even go anywhere or see people that I knew would boost my spirits.  I felt silenced, like I couldn’t even lift my head up.  It was like, I was inside this huge dark hole that I was trying to claw my way out of.  But the more I tried, the deeper into this hole I went!  There was no energy to do anything -pray, read the bible, etc. Nada!

I couldn’t explain it but one of the conclusions I came to was that I had to get out of my own head.  I had listened to all these lies about myself, it had become acceptable to me and that was not okay.  It was against everything the bible showed me and very contrary to what God had shown me about 2020, so why?


In those times, God reminded me of certain things I should never forget:  God is consistent, He never changes, and He’ll never give you more than you can handle.

I was talking to a friend who I noticed had withdrawn like I had but I didn’t think she was going through the same thing I was. It hit me when she shared about feeling ‘inadequate and overwhelmed’ because that’s exactly how I felt.

The Instagram Visit

I was on Instagram the other day and one of the powerful worship leaders I follow had something on his wall that resonated with me.  He basically talked about how God revealed that he had been preoccupied with things that pertained to him building and managing life. He was trying not to be overwhelmed with ministry and all the other stuff.

What ended up happening is that he slipped into an almost anxiety-like decision making lifestyle.  He was living in fear and worrying about making the wrong decisions so much so that he had lost trust in the simple truth that if he just desired God, God would then set his heart on what ‘to’ want.

Deep Breath here

That got me in the gut!  If we desire God, He will give us what to want!!!  In other words, our desires will be filtered through our desiring God!

I am gradually coming to the realization that God never created us to want other things alongside Him but rather to want everything through Him.  This means that whatever we want should be filtered through our ‘God’ desires.  When we just want Him, there is no need to live in anxiety of what else to want or trying to make sure we’re choosing what He wants.

When we just want Him, He’ll align everything else. Remember that scripture, if we delight in Him, He’ll give us the desires of our heart? He will give us what to want, what to desire, what to chase after.  It’s about wanting nothing else but Him!

Let me stretch this a little to say that wanting Him will boost our sensitivity to hearing what He wants through that one thing – our desire of Him.

How do you do that?

There are several ways, but one comes to mind.  Desiring God means we consistently put ourselves in positions that expose us to His transformative power.  I say consistent because we have what I call ‘spiritual amnesia’.  We are a “quick-to-forget-and-move-on” people.

Psalm 16:8 says “I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand, I will not be moved.”  To set something is to focus on it.  Focus can be a very powerful thing; it requires attention and being intentional.

My story

I had let life’s pressures get me down and it took the Holy Spirit speaking to me out  in Wisconsin. He said to me, you were not created to carry your own burdens, talk less of someone else’.  Days later He said, ‘a daily encounter with me will sustain you so you can maintain.  This first half of Psalm 55:22 comes to mind – Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you.”

Sustain vs. Maintain

Let’s check out the difference. To sustain means to hold something at a certain level and to maintain means to do what is needed to ensure something stays a certain state or quality, often the equivalent of “to keep up” or “to take care of.”

To maintain, you need constant focus…  focus so you don’t lose sight of what’s in front of you.  What happens often is we get spiritual amnesia.  We forget what God’s done for us in the past or we try to rush something He is doing.  When you are focused and intentional about desiring God, nothing that happens to you should cause you to forget how good He has been to you.

I know how crazy the last few weeks have been but please know that nothing, absolutely nothing takes God by surprise.  Keep seeking, keep desiring Him.  Instead of fear, let your worship rise like a sweet perfume. I will leave you with this beautiful song by Dunsi Oyekan titled ‘Fragrance to Fire’.  The lyrics are fire!  Be blessed!!!






17 responses to “”

  1. Jeff Avatar

    Thank you for these words!

    1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
      Gladys Osofisan

      Thank you!

  2. Adeyanju Avatar

    Worship is indeed our hearts laid bare and our lives stripped of all pretense in His presence. I struggled for a long time to understand that verse ‘Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart’. Kept thinking, how can He grant any and every desire?

    As I stay in His presence, there is an exchange. I begin to want what He wants and my desires are birthed in His.

    Thanks for sharing G!

    1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
      Gladys Osofisan

      As I stay in His presence, there is exchange!!!!

  3. Abby Avatar

    Thank you for your post. Very True, we are not to carry our own burden. And to do this we need to walk consciously in the reality that if God met the needs of yesterday, He will supply today all that we need. One day at a time. Keeping our eyes on Him, especially in this global critical time!


    1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
      Gladys Osofisan

      On point sis!

    2. K.O Avatar

      Wow!! God sustains, we maintain!! True dat! This is a confirmation to what I’ve been going through these past two week. I like your meaning of maintain “means to do what is needed to ensure something stays a certain state or quality, often the equivalent of “to keep up” or “to take care of.”

      I think that’s where I’ve been falling short and where the Holy Spirit has been drawing my attention to, these past two weeks. We’re all so quick to ask God for more whereas all He needs from us is to maintain what He has already given us. I think that’s the attitude that creates the room for more. My prayer is that God will give us the grace to do what is needful to maintain the gift and talent that he has given us🙏🏽!

      Awesome posting! God bless @ Gladys

      1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
        Gladys Osofisan

        Beautifully written K.O! Especially this “We’re all so quick to ask God for more whereas all He needs from us is to maintain what He has already given us. I think that’s the attitude that creates the room for more.”

        That, right there is gold! We ask for when we’re not even maintaining what He’s already given us! I think it’s because we think we need more to get to the level we think we should be at. At this point, I don’t even know what ‘more’ is. I have come to the conclusion that since I don’t know what nore is, I am going to maintain at the level I am at, desiring to know Him and when it’s time for me to get more, I trust that He’ll give it to me.

        1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
          Gladys Osofisan

          I feel like we keep asking for more when we can’t even handle what He has given us already. We are at capacity, operate at that level before you ask because that ‘more’ can actually do more harm than good.

  4.  Avatar

    Amazing, so timely..I think February had everyone in a runt…def a post worth revisiting every couple of months!

    1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
      Gladys Osofisan

      That ‘runt’ is a place I don’t ever want to be in again and the only way would be to ‘keep the lord’ always before me.

  5. Adesoye Avatar

    Awesome post. My take aways are the need for “God filtered desires” & to be delivered from “spiritual amnesia “ so guilty of losing focus from time to time. Thank you for this insightful post, I’ve been blessed 🙏🏾💕

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    Amen. This is a message He’s been giving many people and myself. He always confirms things. This is like the 3rd reminder in 2 weeks since He revealed this to me.

    He is the one who gives us the desire, what to want, etc. We need to seek Him, spend time in His presence, desire Him, and wait on Him.

    1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
      Gladys Osofisan

      Yes, nothing like knowing and staying in the sustaining presence of the lord!

  7. Jummy Avatar

    That post was fire…thank you for it..it’s so timely and needed…February was a storm for me too…but God is good, it’s refreshing knowing God is always reminding us of his love.

    1. Gladys Osofisan Avatar
      Gladys Osofisan

      Yes February was a storm! But Jesus was in the storm with us even if some of us forgot!

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    This is Beautifully summarized. As long as we are on this earth, we will experience moment like this but how we respond to it show how much we desire God ( my view). I love it when you say as we seek him our desires change to His desires!!! Hallelujah!!! How I love this God or how He love me!!!!❤❤💯💯

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